Update of Da Life..

Hey Peepz

i am trying to tell you about my week i just don't know how to start since it was just straight up crazy weird ,awkward,annoying,stressful.

dealing with losing people i called "Family" and dealing with People That Just` Use me Because I'm nice is a lot!.
I am so upset about the fact that when ever i give the nice me i get  fuck't over...
so i am thinking..(should i be nice?) or should i just be a complete Bitch  because maybe it is easier to just ignore the worlds people.
But than again i am thinking yea know why  would i be like all grumpy and rude?

 i rather be The sun instead of the darkness ...
its hard to decide rather to be light or dark,it 
i want e to be the "light" .
i let myself get sucked into the dark to fast and than its so hard do get back out..

right now i am at a point I've been at 20.00 million times (Feels Like it) i feel like i stept into a trap because i wasn't careful  it is very hard to not be sucked in ..


What really helps is,

 of course My loving Mother that puts me back on my feet and make me light again.

I write a lot so i just write everything on paper.feelings 

thoughts stress non stress 
positive love.
And it really helps me but i still want to learn to just Go back to being my authentic self EVERYDAY 


Aloha Lisa 

ALSO:  

 i Backed Some bread.

 Chilled in da city

 Chheehh Also Its Breastfeeding week..More Like For Years Tho..=P

Boys Having Lunch

My Lovely Girl <3